Turn away ....

You say all the right things,
but there's a wall.
It's almost imperceptible ....
But I 'see' it,
I feel it.

I want to believe your words.
But I fear I do not.
I want to believe your actions.
As actions do speak louder than words,
But your actions more so mimic my thoughts.

You want to believe your words as well.
But you do not.
You try so very hard;
You're halfway convinced,
But mostly, not.

So now what?
Where do we go from here?
Can this 'wall' be removed?
As much as i'd like to think it so, I fear it cannot.
I am too old to wait for you to see what I offer.
I am too stubborn to settle for less than I deserve.

I can't keep lying to myself.
I can't keep pretending that this thing will go away.
I can't keep wishing that it was different.
I can't keep looking into your eyes and do what I must,
Turn away.