Countdown ....

My son graduates from high school in three weeks
I'm excited for him.
And scared.
The world is a far different place than when I graduated.
A college degree doesn't guarantee fuckall.

Thankfully, he is going into a field that hasn't slowed down and doesn't really show any signs of slowing down.
Healthcare.
He wants to be a Physical Therapist.
He's already in his 2nd year of Personal Trainer, so when he graduates he can sit for his license and be a Certified Personal Trainer and work in a Gym or on his own while he's attending college.
He thought ahead about all this, which is more than I can say for myself.
I mean, I knew I wanted to go into healthcare, I just wasn't sure what I wanted to do exactly.
27 years since I left high school and I am NOT working in healthcare!  lol

Anywho, the countdown is on ... and I find myself increasingly torn.
One minute i'm excited, and the next i'm bawling my eyes out and then i'm mad as hell about every little thing he's doing (or not doing).
I have a graduation party for 3 (my niece and nephew are also graduating) to plan, buy for and execute,
It's the end of the school year and I have Dad to take care of, and well .....
yeah .....
I feel like i'm riding a psychotic horse into a burning barn!

On top of it all, it's JUNE.

The most dreaded of ALL months for me.

*sigh*
I feel like i'm whining and bitching, but if I don't write all this, I may have a nervous breakdown.
And I can't afford to have one of them.
I have too much shit to do.

18

My baby .....

My firstborn .....

My son .....

Today you turn 18.
*sigh*
Where did the time go?????

I remember everything about the night you were born.
I remember being scared shitless bringing you home.
Just you & me.
Against the world.
That's how we've spent a lot of those 18 years!
I've made tons of mistakes.
But I hope you always knew how much I love you.

You changed my life in so many ways!
You also saved me.

Watching you grow into the man you're becoming has been a pleasure ....
and a deep honor.
I look forward to next chapters of your life ....

I love you son ...... always.
Mom
xoxoxoxoxoxox




HAPPY  18th  BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!  

B2S

Let the Games begin!!!!!!



111 days till Christmas ......

Cross Roads ....

That is the theme for this weeks Haiku Challenge.
I gave this one a great deal of thought ....
It became very personal to me.
This is where I was .... 18 years ago.

Two blue lines; Now what?
Unmarried single Mother,
Trip to doctor, Or ....



Go on over to Grumpy Granny  and go have a read .... or submit one yourself.

We're doomed .....

"Hey Mom, maybe I should do my Christmas shopping at Walmart this year"

"Why son?"

"Well, I see that they have that new program. The one like Kmart, the stow-away program"

"um ... you mean LAY-AWAY?"

Just think, only another year and a half and he goes out into the world .....
ON HIS OWN!

(maybe I should pin a $20 to him and wish him the best of luck!)