Life changes ....

I seriously doubt anyone will read this .... and that's ok.
It's more for me to get my internal shit out anyway.

My last post was my birthday ....
I can't even begin to tell you the number of changes that have taken place since!

I'd say the biggest change is that Jack & I called it quits in November after 5+ years.
It was my decision more than it was his.  The distance had finally taken it's toll on me and
I wanted something else for my life.
It was/is heartbreaking ..... but also the right thing to do.

I've also managed to lose about 45lbs since July.
I feel fantastic and don't look half bad either ...  lol

For 46, i'll take it!   lol

Sadly, i've had 5 deaths in my family since October with the latest being last Sunday.
It feels like I have a black cloud hanging over my head.
Maybe it's karma.
I just know that I have never wished for winter to be done as much as I want this one to be done.

My oldest brother was almost killed in January.
He took out a utility pole at 2am on a VERY snowy, shitty night.
He was drunk.
Yes, he was arrested and yes, he will deserve whatever the Judge gives him.
It's my SIL and my nieces and nephew I feel bad for.

Speaking of my nieces and nephew .... my Q graduated as an Automotive Tech from college in December.  I am soooooo unbelievably proud of her!  She's working in a dealership and loving life!
My nephew graduates this month and already has a few job prospects lined up.
Again, I am an extremely proud Aunt!

There's been a whole lot more too .... trips to warm, exotic locations, attempting to date again (that's an entire post in itself!) ..... so much more!
I won't get into it all now .... i'm tired of typing.

Hopefully i'll be posting again more .... the dating alone might make me do it!
I do have a question to ask .... since when is it acceptable to let your freak flag fly high and proud on a first date????  Not that it's that big a deal ... I just wish someone had told me the new rules.
This getting old is pure shit!

Blizzard 2014

This is what I "saw" outside my patio door earlier today ....

Believe it or not, there is a huge shed off to the left and a fence about 75 feet from my door.
There's also a pool.

As long as the BBQ isn't buried I guess i'm ok ... right????'

Christmas Idea ....

Who's in??

Are you serious????

2 days ago it was so hot here my tits were drowning.
Today?

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME???????


*sigh*

I guess i'll just play some sweet tunes to make me happy .....

Easter

Just a few thoughts and images from my head to yours ....

HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!

Truth is .....

~ I had my hysterectomy almost a year ago ....
~ I still don't feel 'right'
~ I'm scared as hell that I will never be 'right' again
~ Menopause at 43/44 sucks donkey balls
~ Jack REALLY loves me (he 'deals' with my crazy-ass)
~ I'm excited about The Boy graduating high school
~ I'm also sad and terrified
~ The Boy starts his first real job next week
~ I have a VERY busy week coming up 
~ I'm thinking about going back to Adult Education and becoming an LPN
~ I have no energy
~ I try to stay positive
~ My electrical problems haven't been solved
~ My Father drives me nucking futs
~ I'm drinking more wine than ever
~ I hate that i'm currently sounding like a whiny little bitch
~ I'm going to finish my wine and Shut the fuck up

Change?

What the fuck happened to Blogger????

I've never switched to the new template style.
So why did Blogger decide to change what wasn't broke?
My comments look like crap.

*sigh*
Change.

Maybe Wordpress is in my future

Ho-hum .....

So .....
What to do for the next 3 months?
I can't lift or pull more than 20lbs.
I'm on a restricted workout routine; walking and "light" stretching.
Nothing strenuous.

It was suggested that I take up knitting or crocheting.

I tried once .....
I think I might want to learn a second language, or take some other type of course.
Pottery?
Basket weaving?

I just know I have to find something.
I can't keep doing what i've been doing.
Which has been a whole lot of nothing.

I'll figure it out.